FISH & CHIPS!

"Lost and all alone I always thought that I could make it on my own Since you left I hardly make it through the day My tears get in the way And I need you back to stay"...just heard this song on the radio...what a tear jearker...sigh..well, this song by Bread surely brought back lots of memories..However, everyone is heading for lunch @ Toucan (15 Duxton Hill) today..so Fish & Chips here we come! Yummie! Carbo loading..arghhhh..

Rainy days and sad songs really makes one Reminisce...sometimes I feel so lost and all alone, this emptiness magnified by the stresses of everyday living in this confused world..How can one find strength amongst the hostile? I remember this quote from the dharmapada "Hostility is conquered by Love..that is the eternal law" ...all these precious sacred texts are the only thing that can keep a person sane in this mad mad world...everyday I think to myself, I shall not get angry even when provoked...calming and being able to subdue the mind is easier said then done..this brings to mind the 6 paramitas....am constantly trying my best and strive for perfection thru attitude action and practice...I hope to see things in a different light and apply the methods on this rocky path..

Nobody is perfect and I am too..just a normal human being with faults and many blemishes...am constantly reflecting and trying to make other people happy..maybe I am just trying too hard..and the reverse effect happens...I really don't wish for anyone to get hurt or hurt myself in the process..I have actually learnt how to curb my anger and am amazed that I am more patient now then before...sometimes we step on peoples toes unintentionally and get ourselves embroiled in a tug of war that everyone gets hurt in the end...life is already so complicated and I sincerely do not wish to add to anyone's burden or my own in that matter.

I am really fortunate and am eternally grateful to have met a wonderful holy being who brought light like a beacon shining in the darkness and I also hope this new moon cycle will bring more good things into my life...I have learnt so much in the past two months; more then I ever have in the past 2 years...life is a learning experience and I believe everyone can be given a second chance in our strive for perfection...I believe i can be committed and follow his advise and I do not want to disappoint ...If He can sacrifice his precious time to give guidance to a lost soul, then I have to be strong and soar like an eagle...

One thorny step at a time....